this is how i feel tonight.....

i fucking love you, thank you from the bottom of my soul. this touches my heart oh so muchhhh... 

The same kind of music haunts her bedroom

I'm almost me again, she's almost you

I wouldn't know where to start

"Sweet Music" playing "In The Dark"

Be still "My Foolish Heart, "

Don't ruin this on me

staring behind my eyelids. 

Almost before we fell in love,

I saw a silhouette of a man behind your heart.

He held a skull of a dog and a six pack of beer.

Before I could even blink, he spoke to me:

                “Don’t take this man’s heart, he is as fragile as dreams from a child.

He knows nothing bad and only loves until the sun comes up again.”

I can’t distinguish if this was a dream, or if this

Really happened to me.

Loose Your Breath.

Just ignore the mailman like you ignore your mother

There is a frog in my coffee, and I can’t kill him.

The Flies around here have seven toes and they sing.

Why are there so many berries on this tree?

Remember when van caught fire and the groceries were

Still in it? The days where CD's were my life and

Cigarettes actually tasted good.

forever in love with the first time we kissed in the pouring rain.

that tingle all the way down in my toes, rushed through my spine.

it took a hold of my heart and made me feel love in the raw state.

90 Years Old.
 

The smell of you at the age of ten

Haunts my spaces where I hide at night.

I can’t tell if you are trying to talk to me or

If you are trying to scare me.

sky eyes for the old me.

You help me find myself

You brought the old me back

Between the songs we sing at three am

And laughter we share all night long

It was you, you taught me how to

Get my old self back

Keep this love, tucked between

Your two front teeth, cus I love

You darling, and don’t want to

See anyone else walk you into the sunsets

everyone thinks i'm nuts cus i can 
speak to my dead dad in my dreams
but just believe and never do 
anything to harm the man. 

listen little child you're ok.
don't worry about yesterday, don't cry about today.
just smile because you are alive. 
look above and just breathe.
hold my hand and everything will be fine.

by the grace of this sun, 

and the moon gods, i met you
and you've loved me ever since. 

my love runs for you like the ocean's deep sea.

start going and stop talking
love is the only thing alive here
now just hold my hand, dance in the rain
cus you know when we love each other
only the good kind of Rain will come down. 

too young for my body
too old for him
my soul sits high in existence

space and sunlight all i ever need.
all i ever see: empty, nothing.
human bodies all around.
some speak, some listen, some destroy
some love. 
all these humans are soulless.
all these humans only exist on Tuesdays.

old notebook poem series... 

Woke up.

Flowers fall

The room is full of love

And I’m scared again

Nothing but the ceiling moves.

Her voice shines in the moon light.

Cigars.

Don’t be afraid to chase what you love, with a bee in a carriage.

I am a coyote with sunglasses, what stands before me is the unknown.

Vegetable knees, and really nice bumblebees. Your eyes speak the language of your lover.

Just before us, lilies weep in the garden all morning, while the acid rain falls.

The Church bells ring, the dead children decide to sing, and the Yellow Moon fills the sky.

Tonight, all the bugs will die, the trees with sew their hopes into clouds, and the stars will sing.

whispering weirdo

Stop fucking with my head, you know I don’t got a soul/

Scream for the dead lady, dance with her big eyed son/

The cat’s meow, the Disco in the yard, the volleyball/

I just want you to shake it and get loose/Forget about your life,

Your car is on fire anyways/Put a knife in my pocket, to give the

Kid a bee kiss/ Feel this rhythm, humans turn into hybrid birds/

Get down, Get down, Get down and feel it/ My life is dead, I

Will walk in the streets just to prove it to you/With a bullet

In my brain, and a dog on a leash/Watch out for the van.

Drinking hubcap coffee.

When I’m in the mood don’t get in the way.

You can’t stop a train with your fingers, you can’t stop me.

Before you waste time trying, remember I am a lion.

Nothing gets between me and the Black Sea.

Before the water turns into clouds and we start crying,

Spring will bring new friends and new life.

Don’t forget to tie your laces, the ground thieves might trip you.

The information here is stale, eat your kale and don’t look back.

poem i will name pocket.

Can’t make sense of this river anymore.

The distant light, rises above all before the storm rolls in.

The Sun will shine today after the grass grows a bit and the birds sing.

Meet us for the evening fire dance, before the Wolf Moon, you and I.

two more beers.

Bird baths and paperclips.

This milk has some mold in it.

Lost my phone before it died and

No one can get a hold of me now.

The field speaks to the cattle.

Ice cube hands and turkey legs.

Today seems like yesterday but upside

Down and new.

today we drove around.

Woman in black.

Her eggshell mind

Still exists

Only to find no time for love.

She said,

                “take my soul, take me whole”

The yellow moon illuminates the soft midnight pond.

As her delicate body floats above the night’s pond.

Only her soul knows what will come later tonight.

Birds sing the lady in black to sleep.

That night the lady in black was laid to rest.

mood