Thursday


Love for Today.

Today I will dance with the children that don’t get loved
And I will share with them, a beautiful melody.
Today I will become the first lady to eat a bug and to
Whisper words of August Rain.
Today I will show the world that everything is pretty to me
And we will understand the coyotes howl to the Full Moon.
Today I will be me, and I will love it, only to see 
that the world can be as round as a peach may be. 




Don’t Know, but Now I Know Mr. Sullivan.

A man by the name Mr. Sullivan rode me to work today.
Not in a car, not by train, Mr. Sullivan rode a bike.
He placed my body in the front basket and we went on our way.
He rode to work every day, on his bike.
Three miles there, Three miles back.
Today I rode with Mr. Sullivan to work.
He shared stories of love, hate and horrible beers. 
A nice soul he sure was, he handed me a cigarette.
We shared laughs and bug bites.
The cigarette reminded me of the blues in the 70s
And the bar where my Mother met me for the first time.
Today I know where Mr. Sullivan came from.
I learned how to love all men, and where to buy the best beer.
The way his skinny lips hit each other after every laugh.
He brings me back to days where I used to breathe and love.
He remained my best friend until his dog died.


Poem

Open Eyes.
Open Soul.
Open Wound.
Open Mouth.
Open Door.
Open Sign.
Open Throat.
Open Arms.
Open Love,
Never
Ends.


Mowing my Heart Lawn.

As flowers grow through my soul,
The blue bird sings me to my death.
Beautiful as a bee, humble like a man.
The light is all we have to cherish.
Love more than loved, and you will see.
Open Water River from my heart to yours.
Land in a pool of love, only to shake it off.
Branches brush my thigh, even fish have to die.


In a world where you can be anything, being kind is enough.

Wednesday


White flower haze.
As she rose her heavenly spirit screamed.
Flowers danced around her as the rain began to pour.
Droplets formed on her eyelashes where butterflies used to play.
The sound of children crying and tulips being born filled the air.



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Angel eyes.
Hair like stray.
Her bubble gum tongue.

Tuesday


Recycle Bin.

Scrape the dirt from under your nails
Wipe away the sad tears and show me your teeth.
This world is full of daises and lavender love.
We can sing to the children and we can dance in the rain.
Here the ladies love only men with two heads.
Their ears are longer than tree branches.
And here the cobble driveway seems to never end.
The Men play their trumpets while the peacocks march in,
The band is from Africa and the Queen just arrived.
The ants are screaming and no one can hear them.
Inside the mail box you shall find a skeleton key.
Which unlocks my dead grandfather’s heart.


two white socks.

A day where peaches tuck me into bed and angels sing me to sleep
Sunsets that speak to you and I and places where we drop our bread crumbs.
Car doors the color of the old man’s eyes, and hair that sticks straight up.
To the moon and back down here where we can dance. The music here is heavenly.
The piano is older than the tree bark and the children here don’t speak.
We can hold hands and dance to the cherry heart melody line.


the ninth twenty ladybug dance.  

If I connect the freckles on your face I can see a smile
The back of your teeth feel good to me.
But I know you are worried about your dentist appointment,
And the day you have to walk your dog.
But don’t be too worried, there are always people there.
They will hand you dog collars and a bag of old teeth.
The bag of old teeth will probably be from me.
So don’t take those too far.
The wheel from here and your mother’s house is in our way.
I can feel the rain come down, not slow, on this June morning.
The little men with cherry eyes will lead the way.
And between you and I will be the dreaming tree.
There used to be a duck here, every morning he would greet us.
I think someone killed the duck and
My imagination.

Friday

OH MY GOD...  I AM IN TEARS... I FUCKING LOVE THIS SONG, THIS BAND...OMG

Wednesday


Page Two of this Two Page Essay.

Dandelions Yell.
Happiness Shines.
Ladies Dance.
Grass Grows.
Men Cry.
Spoons Scoop.
Lips Kiss.
Babies Cry.


Electric Toasting Time Machine.

I think it’s funny when two men rhythm,
They love time, time, time.
Dogs that run, running dogs.
The sidewalk seemed to never end,
When I was a kid, kid, kid.
The water from the ocean tastes
Like seaweed and fish love.
Love, love, love.
I think the sand is made of little
Dead crabs, legs from birds and
Earth dirt. But I could be wrong.
Here is where my dead hair falls.


#27

A flower petal brushes against my palm,
thoughts from far beyond enter.
The steps seem deeper than before and
the kitchen table has legs, it’s walking now.
I can remember the first time Papa showed
me the man on the Moon. The grass here
is thick, like my hair. The power seems to
be out. Spoons make wind chimes and
smiles make happiness. Don’t forget that.

hello humans! sorry for nothing.... my little sis is graduating college tomorrow... shit has been crazy over here. but a good kind of crazy. i am trying to update! thanks for sticking around ;)

Thursday

YAAA GURRRL TORR GOT A B IN LIT & COMP  AND AN A- IN CREATIVE WRITING ;)
Camille Pissarro wrote, “Blessed are they who see beautiful things in humble places where other people see nothing.”

Wednesday

don't worry June Bug.



Don’t mind me, I’m only crying because I can’t love everything.
I spread my love, very thin, across this planet.
To humans, To animals, To trees, to bugs.
My love is as thin as dental floss.
The problem with bees is they don’t listen.
Sky full of white clouds rushes in.
The ocean breeze reminds me of our first date.
And the first time we ever kissed in the rain.
Sea Shells pour out of my brain, close this book.

thoughts.



The banjo screams loud/ touching my face with love/ little toes they dance/ watch for the Devil/ Heaven wants their Earth back/ slam the door/ the barn is on fire/ cows keep their milk/ the tractor mows the inside of my mind/ growing out my ears are daises/ the farmer rings his bell/ it is lunch time.

Dinner With Mr. Bird.



The bird whispered to me, “please come along”
I pick up my braid and book and follow.
Through the woods, my toes touch pine cones.
The sound of leaves crunching under my feet excite me.
My braid drags behind me, while butterflies find a new home.
Fresh, new and white: their new home.
Trees surround us and flowers sing.
Gently, the breeze takes my voice away.
Along the river bend I can see a bearded man.
He reaches down and catches a fish.
Handing it over to me he says, “lunch for us three”
Mr. Bird gathers some berries, while I look for the mint.
The bearded man started a fire, to cook our fish.
Together we mix our ingredients and enjoy.
Nothing matters at this point in time.
The Earth stopped spinning.


Come Home.

Roses, dead, hanging next to me.
Scattered pedals on the water’s surface.
Hummingbird songs fill the air, beautifully.
Blue, ocean blue skies, above me.
My soul may rise to heaven.
Stones that control our lives.
Amethyst: a meditative and calming stone.
Placed in my left pocket.  


e.a.r.t.h.


Crickets.
Blades
Of
Grass.
Air.
Rain.
Ants.
Dirt.
Trees.
The
Earth
Is
Beautiful.

Tuesday


Mini Moon Men.

The moon rises and my soul escapes my body.
Moon men carefully carry my body up.
The stars shine bright, while my eyes stay closed.
There is love in the air, I can smell it.
The moon seems brighter than before.
When I was a child, a man lived on the moon.
Shining brighter than life itself, I can breathe now.

Monday

OH MY SWEET LOVE. GOD I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS MAN


Time to rejoice.

A life has entered,
This world, which can
Be scary, at times you
Can feel alone, you won’t
Be forever, young and silly,
Like your first born, into
A room full of love,
Your mother kisses,
Your soul which searches,
Deeper than the ocean blue.


Hair like hay.

Wiry, coarse & rough.
Between his two eyes sat his nose.
The size of a mountain, large.
Freckles scattered across his round cheeks.
Two chocolate brown eyes.
Nothing comes out when he tries to speak.
Hearing aids in both ears: deaf.
Mr. Kellerson was one hundred and three.
With hair still upon his head, coarse like hay.



garbage bag.

The sun will rise eventually.
Bones rattle in the trunk,
Cigarette smoke fills the air.
Sky so blue, you can’t hear her scream.
The crows dance in the field,
Men come from all around.
Stalks thicker than summer haze.
Little buttons with little kids.
On the way home I met a flea.
Very kind. He was one of a kind.
He bought me dinner that
Valentine’s Day.

10 may 2018 ~

today is a very special day..... my dad would have been 44 today... been dating ry for 5 years 10 months... and dave matthews band released the single to the new album... well the music video for it. we've heard this song during 2016 tour.... new album coming out too! yessss so happy. life is juicy right now and i'm happy about that. going to post their music video in a sec. watch the whole thing. 

happy thursday ya creeeeps;)

Wednesday

OH MY GOD. I FUCKING LOVE THIS I CAN'T STOP RIGHT NOW 

Tuesday


Spider web heartbeat.

Rusty spoons, rose pedals & honey.
Erase thoughts, drink poison.
Together we shall share this cup.
One hand in front of the other.
Spin around and touch the sky.
Electric green eyes.

Lady Nancy Astor wrote, “The most practical thing in the world is common sense and common humanity.”

Dusty webs and old bones.

Here lies my bones that once made me.
The ash and the dust make it hard to see.
The flower that grows, deep inside.
Opens like a newborn baby’s eyes.
The earth is dark and cold.
The bones here are now so old.
An aroma of Lavender coming from above.


Wednesday


Music is my soul.

You can take my home
You can have my car
I don’t even care about the television
Just don’t take my music away
The notes take me to a different place
Tones and vibrations come up through
My toes. Makes my whole body dance and groove.
Steal my spoons & have my pork but leave me the melodies of the River.
The only true thing that speaks to my human soul.


Skeleton funeral

I am not too familiar with this place
People park their cars so strangers can arrange them.
They laugh about memories and old stories.
There is a book in the front room. For who? I do not know.
 As for the man here is dead.
We gather around a bag of bones
The people attempted to make pretty.
Some weep, some leave flowers, some pray.
Why are we talking to a dead man?
Why are we looking at this man, dead?
Humans gather from far and near.
To stare at a man who use to be.
They bring old photographs to share.
Why is it ok to sit around a dead man 
as the Sunday sun rises? Whose idea is this?
The man isn’t here anymore.
He can’t defend his thoughts.
Stupid people look at the bones.
They don’t know.
His soul is in the room.


Number 603 on Main St.

He was a nice man
A black cap sat upon his head
He has only had one lady in his bed
The man whistles, his dog comes out of no where
Cigarette butts scatter across his front yard.
His house is made of stone and his farm
Is old as dead bones.
He owns a tractor and a couple horses.
Next door lives dead Mrs. Smith.


Lightning bolts.

The river sits, calm as smoked glass shines.
Squirrels run by, acorns in both arms.
I can smell the morning. New, young dew.
The sun creeps up the mountain.
The grass glistens as the birds sing.
Together we are one.
Together we are the earth.
Today shall be the day.

this made sense to me.....    "the more profound you are, the more meaning you need" 

Tuesday


Running through the fire, running through the flame,
Running through the hatred, pushing through the blame,
Running through the hopelessness and shame, 
Revolution already underway.

Alone is how I feel, all the time.

I stand outside my car in the rain.
No hat, no rain boots, just me in the rain.                    
When I open my door a receipt is seen dancing in the wind.
Not mine but I pick it up to recycle this little dude.
I stand as tall as I can with nothing in between.
The Nikes I have on right now are older than my age and
My car is leaking fluids. I can feel nothing.
Right now I can feel absolutely nothing.  The rain touches
My left shoulder, it graces my nose. But I can’t feel it.
I think I am finally realizing this. I think the thought just hit me.
It doesn’t matter where I am.
It doesn’t matter who I am with, I am alone and blank.
Blank like the canvas in front of the teacher.
I can see the man smile next to me and I don’t feel it.
I am alone in a world full of greedy humans. I am alone
In a place where no one can see me, they don’t understand.
As the gum sticks to the pavement in the morning rain,
I can see my life going down the drain.
I can pretend to be happy, even in the darkest of times.
I can pretend to like you and all around us.
But I just found out that I will forever be alone.
Like the one piece of grass that grew through the pavement.
Alone. I can have a man and a home, but all I feel is alone.
For the man, I feel sorry; I know he will never know. But he loves me
He is stuck here without me. My body lies next to
Him in bed, but I still feel empty.




Plant a seed.

Leather straps, old man hats and sidewalk cracks.
Ma is on the front porch peeling tonight’s dinner.
The green beans have taken over the back yard
And the stone wall, twisting and sitting everywhere.
An old dog walks by only on three legs.
The can on the porch is getting rusty from June Rain.


delicate ocean sand.

Across the ocean’s surface a Dainty Lady waltzes.
Her legs like tree limbs: strong, durable and rooted.
Around her neck hangs a Golden Heart Locket.
Rings on each fingers and a soul full of truth.