the human i used to have, left me

It makes me sad to think we used to be so close. It is so sad to think that you were my number one human I had. It makes me sad that you aren’t around anymore. When I go outside at night, alone looking for you, I can’t see you. I can’t hear your soul singing to me, like I usually do. I can’t see your face, when I think about you anymore. All I see is a black hole. I can’t imagine my life without you, but at this very moment in time, my life has been without you. My life has existed of stupid mistakes I make because you aren’t here telling me what to do. It makes me sad that a day in the past, you had full control over me. You had full control over my being, my existence, you were pretty much me. But now I am looking for you, I am looking for answers and hugs and you aren’t there. Now I am looking for answers in thin air. I don’t know what to do, I never knew what to do. That is why I always went to you. But now you are gone and I find myself sitting here, praying to the croaked moon, that your soul will hear me and just one small sign will appear. I just pray you find yourself out there where ever you went. I will love forever, please don’t forget this.