Tuesday

Monday

i want to be me when i grow up.

i want to be an artist when i grow up, the kind that shows the brilliant world to the blind.
i want to be a mailman when i grow up, the kind that delivers your mail on time.
and i want to be a helper when i grow up, the kind that will feed all the hunger in the world.
i want to be a mother when i grow up, the kind that has a bond that will last forever. 
i want to be me when i grow up, the person who will always be inside my human body till the day i die.

what you aren't, perfect.

Perfect like the old man down the road.
Perfect like the fork in the road.
Perfect like the eyeballs staring at me right now.
Perfect like the best day ever.
Perfect like the meadow of us 
and the meadow of you. 
Perfect like roses with thorns. 
And you would have been perfect like he was.
Perfect like the ice cream shop down the road.
Perfect like the landscape outside my window in Brooklyn.
Perfect like I thought you were when you said you loved me. 
Perfect, is what you aren’t.


Coffee. 

Coffee makes me happy
Coffee makes me crazy
Coffee warms my soul
When it knows I am dead. 
Black Silk Coffee.

Wednesday


my friend anne that I work with brought in this super old book from her childhood.. she's cleaning her house out and moving down South soon.. so she's going through all the old shit in her basement.. and this book was in the mess. she brought it in today and we read it and adored all the artwork, this was my favorite page... i want the book if she tries to get rid of it i am asking her for it. 

Don't fuck with my old man, Jones.

Old man Jones
Has one eye
Wishes to die.
His family left him
His dog kept him
He has no home.
Trash bags make his windows
Boxes make an abode.
His laces don’t match.
But I guess that is the least of his worries.
Old man Jones is the nicest old man I know.
His town is Manchester.
The bus stop on Main is his home. 
Don’t fuck with Old Man Jones.

 slow motion time.

Today is stale like yesterday’s muffin
The time is dead
It just stopped
Like a tack hitting the ground
Just stopped
The tapping of the water
Just stopped
The lady typing
She just stopped too.
Today the time is still
And my mind is running
Before it. Time tells a lot
Of things and time will
Tell me that tomorrow
Is just around the corner so 
Hurry and make that food.

this morning.

Coffee bean candles.
Vanilla shaped eyes. 
The scent of morning. 




somewhere in ct....

 i was saying bye guys, to these cuties.. this one legit holds this cheese ball smile for a good 30 seconds.. and i can't stop fricken laughing. ahh!



poem

running high with nothing on my mind
behind the sunrise is where my baby is
hes holding out his hands.

i know this is weird, but i've been here before

twenty two not me.
some days i feel much older than i look
today i felt like a hundred and three.
i can sense the age through my eyes
eyes are the looking glass to this universe
i woke up and just felt awkward in my twenty
two self. my age says nothing about me. 
it's actually the opposite.

river side

cream of the crop
bubble gum drop
don't send the men
send the boys.

weirdo

sidewalk that ends
spoons that ring
fat cat meows
rugs that are worn
spiders that are born.

sea plants

near the sea
is where she used to be
near the tree
is where i used to sing
near the bee
is where i am.

see you soon

meet me on the super moon
chasin' insects till dawn
the sky here is purple
as purple as the sea
the people here love to sing.

poem.

i want to love you one million times more.
i want to kiss you like you're never coming through that door
i want to love you like you're a child
i want to smile through my ears
i want to love you one million more times.

Poem.

Everyone here has lost their minds.
Stare at the soul of this child
And you will see what life really
Means. If a butterfly has only
One wing, will he fly?

Tuesday

this was a youtube find from like 30 centuries ago.. and i never told you to listen.. so listen now. 

poem.

you are my secret lover
you are my secret garden
all i want is to be with you alone
i want to share all this time the Earth
gave me with you. i want to share
all the stars that space gives us
and i just want to feel you close
i want to know what it's like to 
hold you and i want to taste you
under my nails. and i want to call you
mine. i want this world to just
be ours. i want the sound of music
to fill our souls up and i want it
to take us away. no we aren't on
the ground anymore. we are floating
far far away. you are my secret
lover and i just want the world alone
with you.
"i don't know the man that's living in my head, if i don't know the women sleeping in my bed"
dave matthews

they'll keep starring.

you know that people stare
all we can do is just ignore them.
keep that bright smile on
and just ignore them
sooner rather than later
they will just go away
they will all disappear.
so don't worry about them,
keep doing you.

YOU AND ME AND ALL OUR FRIENDS SUCH A HAPPY HUMAN RACE
~DAVE MATTHEWS

circles

one way roads that lead to two towns.
while the old man is snoring it is defiantly
pouring. gardens grow out of control on
the other side of this earth. the water that i see
is clear and the weather here is different
but i know at the end of the day i can call
Tuesdays mine and we can throw away the
rest of the work week. by the dawn of
tomorrow all my thoughts will be stored
into the next thought folder and the
space where we used to meet for our midnight
kiss isn't there anymore. and heaven
is a place where no one wants to die.
but we want to know how it feels there
and i know by the looks of it, there
are stars during the day and we see
clouds full of smiles during the lame days.
don't let too much of a sweet thing kill
you, cus you know it will.

 Poem.

Cold Breath
Cold Nose
Cold Feet
Cold You
Cold Me
Cold Heart 
Cold.

Rain drops.

Days like today where it is rainy and black as a dead man’s soul outside
I just want to die. I just want to feel what it’s like to stare up at the sky
With the air in my lungs and just open eyes. I want to see what it feels like.
To know what the world looks like when you are dead.
I want to experience death upon a living earth. 
And I want to know what it feels like now. 

Poem. 

Open toed sandals, open toed heart.
Paper towels that are used and
Spoons that are like knives. Dinner
Tables with mice on them and the
Door bell is on fire. The old man across
The way is screaming my name, while the
Cats are hanging from the roof. A party in
My mouth happens, only at Thanksgiving
And the little boy I once loved, is now
Off with another girl. Tree bark and old
Men with bumble bee knees and little
Stoned mushrooms. The way she looks
At me is the same way she looks into
The death of a sunset. The train is about to
Take off, while the rocket is on its way home.
My brain works better with no morning talk
And a nights rest. My brain will create until
The day I die. Today is Tuesday and I guess that is better
Than yesterday, when it was a work week Monday. 
Cheers to the upcoming day and happiness to all.

Friday

eleven eleven sixteen. 

the news i got today makes me as blue as a dark room.
but i can't go through my day with tears in my eyes.
i just have to smile because you gave me all this
beautiful music and all these strange words that made
sense to me. you gave me hope in the world of art and
you showed me how beautiful this sick world is. but i
can't continue to cry today, i have to be as joyous as
a mother that just gave birth. i have to conquer
the day with a smile. I will try. But I can feel the
sadness creep up. I can feel the tears roll back into
my empty sad head. And Life Goes On. 
LOVE YOU FOREVER XXOO

Thursday

afraid of the dark.

please don't leave me baby
please don't leave me in the dark.
don't ever leave me here alone.
alone in a corner half way across
the world.  i am afraid of the dark.

pink plate saucers.

what's the use of hiding when you know you are wrong.
as wrong as turning right on red. don't let the rats of
the city take away your dreams, ya pretty bitch. shut up
and keep pushing forward. don't worry about the past and
don't hurry the future. i know what i am saying. the letter
a only looks good in the sunlight. her toes match your nose
so you two should have a baby. while i drink some more
wine, all i think about is how satisfying the sound of dirt between
your shoe sole and the pavement sounds. leaves crunch in the
background.

people stare but you got to just ignore it.

water dripping from the stem of this hen.
the eggs roll down the beach sand
like the men hit the golden wall. let 
only stars show you the way home and
listen to each and every stranger you meet.
someday you will see what i mean when i
tell you to love everyone. and you realize
why i always wore my hair like that.
but for now just sit legs crossed violin
on full blast. while the time goes was 
slow as Mosses and as fast as an airplane.
sometimes i can't make up my mind. but
that doesn't deter me. that doesn't
take away my power to use the flower.
and that doesn't take away my love for 
this very planet, and the human population.
accept who you are and accept that 
the world only spins left on Tuesday, and 
the clouds you see outside aren't real
anymore. 

poem.

the ocean is where you can find me because i'm feeling a little blue.
the forest is where ill be when i'm free, when i'm me.
in my bed is my location when i'm dead. 

somewhere out there

polka dots swim in my eyes
the mailman is knocking on my door
but i'm not getting up to answer.
bass guitar seems harder to play
upside down. when will you
just stop and think about that sound
the sound of upside down music
created from a man with green
eyes and a bow tie. he also rides
his bicycle to work most every
day. he owns three cats and doesn't
like rats. the man with green eyes
plays like no other man. here when
you close your eyes, you will
swim in the music. while its spreading
across your soul. now all you want
to do is get up and dance to till midnight.
the green eyed man played till
he was 105.

in the arms of my women is where ill go

mother earth a lady with a sunflower soul
she must have the best taste and the
most beautiful voice across the land.

Wednesday


 you.

Pine cone heart.
Cold stone eyes.
Two left feet.
One huge lie.  
A dirt soul.

Poem.


When I love the lids of your eyes just smile.
When I love the color of your teeth just blink.
When I love the taste of your skin just breath.

why do you hate me now?


Untied laces, untied tops, untied love.
You said you loved me, now we don’t talk.
Confused by this, my black heart sinks to
The bottom of my human ocean.  Don’t
Say things you don’t mean. Now every
Night right before the baseball game
My eyes cry, because the picture
Reminds me of you. 
THIS IS MY FAV VERSION OF THIS SONG.
IF YOU DONT GET UP AND DANCE WHEN LISTENING YOU ARE INSANE PEOPLE!!

wooded oranges.

Blue mountain love,  black bear songs.
Ferns that are green camouflage my heart
From mean boys and jealous women.  
The future isn’t as bright as the North Star like my mother said. 

horse teeth.


Horses with manes and men that are ashamed
They’re ashamed of this life. The old toes
The crack in her soul, the wooden box heart.
Men with swords and men with love, neither are
The best.  They seek the weak and only love
The hate.  I must confess this is the truth. 
me rn...

Tuesday


balls deep in the van





dead tomato.

write till you die.
don't lie to me.
stop wasting my time
you little bee.
yellow leaf 
i can see the surface of one leaf.
my ears sense the tree above me gave me this leaf.
 the color seems to be yellow. 

aliens are from outer space.

hours i spend picking the inside of my minds brain
i don't know why, it just makes me insane. while the 
grill is on fire my fish ran away. phones been off the
hook since 1999 and it will stay that way. i love the 
color of your socks, they match your eyes. the girl
next door will never die.

bottles of empty love.

i planned a gluten free birthday party for tony
and a pineapple upside down cake for dinner.
she told me once and she won't say it again,
so now i don't remember how to get into
the garage. the dog is on a chain, that looks 
as old as my dead grandfather. she doesn't 
seem very happy anymore, especially ever 
since the blue birds started to disappear.
i can hear the cry of the crow in the far,
far distance, while a plane blocks my view. 
if there are two crows, the sunflowers will 
glow. if there is one
 I don't know.

this makes no fucking sense.


saying i love you after the first date kind of scares me.
holding the door for me, excites me.
long talks about nothing don't exist on my planet.
here we speak of music, love and unity.
the doors are open, so come on  in.
just don't forget your friends and bring the whiskey.
when the new grass grows in you will understand
how hard it is to mow. stars will be out tonight
along with the bees, my heart goes out to all the
creepy old men. someone has to give them love
sometimes. but it's not me, it's that redhead from
work that wears only apples and sings in peaches.
she can take care of all of them. while the elephants
scream and the lions dance. the world is on pause
while i find my pants. 

girl as dark as the moon


she wears high heels when shes home alone.
she only smokes cigarettes in the rain
and she only sleeps when it's past midnight.
don't ask her for much.

unknown

i see you with ziti eyes
i see you with a wide smile
i see you with no clothes on
i see you in the dark.


house 129. he thought we were gonna die.

the time i found an old corn field on the trail...

im obsessed with trees i think...

acorn crossing camp.

November mornings before the fog disappears.
top of the mountain view.
crisp air for any man.

when the music never ends.

when the music just takes over your body
when you feel the notes come out your finger tips.
you can taste the drum beat.
you dance with the sax and get chills.
this is real life for me.
is it for you?
poem.
pretty girls with round curls.
pretty girls with no heads.
pretty girls with brown eyes.
.
short tail.
short hair.
short you.

creepy girl

her black eyes sure glow.
the thrill of her makes my heart beat square.
mermaid hair and angel lips.

babies in swings

cats meet me in the middle.
as little as her nose.
finger nail that just grows..
mouth open wide, i can 
taste you like yesterday.

BEES & TREES.

mint candles smell my brain
purple flowers make me insane
dirt is where the worms live
i met a bird this past Tuesday.

Sunday

TODAY'S MY GRAMS 70TH BIRTHDAY


we met a few laughing horses along with some meat heads.
the grass on Heaven grew purple last night.
worlds that are like never ending phone convos at midnight.
your mother is in love with my next door neighbors shoes.
foggy moons sparkle the souls of all sewer rats.


somewhere in mass with goats.

Tuesday

blue pens.

Juicy peaches, and untied laces
My love for you is only in my dreams.
Dreams will make you insane, if you
Never stop. The words that come from
Her mouth are as pure as rose colored
Cream and smooth as jazz on a Sunday
Don’t worry about the bushes outside
And don’t worry about all the strangers.
Liquor lips and dead fish.
Solar panels and the end of time
Right before my mind, is when the
Rocket will explode.