My discomfort sits upon your lips.

You speak and all I hear is nonsense-

When your mouth opens you should talk sweet love and innocence

but all you do is fill my mind with SHIT.

and 

I CAN’T TAKE IT

I want out. I just need to breathe.

My lungs have turned a charcoal kind of Green and I can hear my mother

Screaming my name from here,

         “VICTORIA MARIE….”

I know I’m fucked, 

I fucked up. 

This is fucked up

I just can’t take the pain; I can’t take the stubborn silence anymore.

You have sucked my soul dry and now it is my time to find

The thoughts that have lived in my brain