Bone dry sky.

Melt

My thoughts.

You can sQueeze

My brain-

But when it rains

Will you be

There?

My flowers need

The sunlight

To grow.

Am I waiting for the devil?

Or angels?

Can’t tell between

The dust and rust

The orange peels

And cigarette butts

This is us-

Is there any chance?

Anywhere-

Past or even the future?

As my eyes cry lemons

My heart bleeds blood

Can I take this much longer?

I can’t tell anymore

      Numb.

If I just stand still

If I just balance

For one minute

If I just hold my breath if I just close my

Eyes until the black couldn’t

Get more black

Take my bones to the sea

The clouds told me the sea is the

Only place where broken hearts

Like salt

i could be roots
growing strong
up the house
to find warmth
between the windowsills

i could be a bird\
hungry in the painted grey skies
to hunt for a home
so high up above
make a space safe

home.

Trying to understand why you eat the banana peels

I wake up with a different face on

  I try to understand the color that

paints your eyes. I want to know

      what makes you feel

safe on a dark, Friday night.

I just want to watch you fall asleep.

I will patiently wait, for as long as it takes.

I promise to keep you safe, when the

Rain falls on your skin and

Your dreams turn bad. 

I promise to love you until the end. 

Delicate as the night’s wind. Most prominent sin.

I can’t help it, 

you make me fit in this skin.   

Lullabies just to get by.

I’ve swallowed too many feelings again-

I really did. My mind spins and spins, I can’t

Seem to stand straight. My mom sings me to

Sleep because she’s afraid the liquor might

Win. I can’t control the feelings I’m in, I can’t

Get out of this mess. Spread across the wall,

Thin. Can’t stress the stress I wear where I

Should grin. Throwing up, the past ten

Years of this life…….and I see no end. 

Stick this needle to my brain as for 

I feel no more pain.