old diary entry ~ august 2026

i wake up to a familiar damp smell
i can see things i've already experienced
and stuff only the future holds secrets for.
dirt in my hair and under my nails, all while the years
had me in a chokehold and tears part from my eyes.
the moonlight drowns out 
the noise and i scream, 

         "i just want to feel everything and nothing at once"
as my father wipes away the tears and all i can taste is 
the color red: blood. 
and now the sun screeches to let us all know 
it is dawn.