Wednesday


 

 

 

If I had a place to lay my head

I wouldn’t worry so much of the

Weather. If my mind would stop

Racing, I wouldn’t worry in the rain.

If I had a star to grasp

    Amongst the cruel world

I wouldn’t cry into the river.


 

 

 

Sifting through memories

  Stored with this body.

Trying to find a time where

   Nothing mattered besides

The teeth in my mouth and

The toes on my feet.

 


 

As feelings before me

Begin to vanish with

The winter’s harsh

Wind- I remind myself

To breath in.

Lake Street Dive - Mistakes (Bose Better Sound Session)


poem

As I admire the light

Of the full moon-

Dark in the night,

    Dark in the woods.

My dreams seem so close,

   So real,

As if melodies were pouring

Out from each ear,

Evaporating before they reach

    Air.


Friday

 
Setting fire to all I know
   Tragedies lost
Down the drain
Where my time seems
To stick to months
And months of rain
Nothing inside makes
Sense anymore
With a devil on my
Shoulder and a crow
Walking me out the
Door. I can’t seem
To find my left
From my right
a n y m o r e

Monday

Florence And The Machine - My Boy Builds Coffins | SK* Session



My boy builds coffins and I think it's a shame
That when each ones been made, he can't see it again
He crafts everyone with love and with care
Then its thrown in the ground and it just isn't fair
light of the night.
at midnight 
i am meeting him 
behind the shed 
to embalm all 
memories of us.
i stand still 
throw to the moon 
sorrow and pain 
as tears run 
down my face
the air turns and i
can't seem to find 
my thoughts.....
     dreams
         even reality
everything falls to the sea
as he wipes my tears away


 

 
sand turns to mud.

aside the rain
which continues to fall
           harder and faster
        faster and harder
light in his eyes glow
even when the song 
doesn't play or the
moon can't sing 


 

 


i asked for a fork
             you brought me a plate
i asked for some space 
              you gave me a maid
nothing here makes sense anymore


 

 

notebook parts.
if you continue to sleep
      with your eyes closed
                     you will miss
     the best parts of 
   this life


 

 
blOOd splaTTer
scratching until
             i bleed.
         Obsessed
    over things I
             cannot
            change.


 

 
Feeling his love though
The tips of my fingers
         Down my spine
    Licking his words of
   Affection
While I stand
Fighting this fire inside
With
     R E A L 
              LOVE 

poems, river, hand

 
  A sensation of deep
Regret began to grow
 Inside my stomach as
       The moon’s glow
                   Dimmed.

 




 
 
woke up in a strange place
       feet wet
       aching mind
       no place to go
stood up and continued to walk
        ferns between each toe
drank water which a leaf held-
   grasped for clouds that
   seemed closer than air
only to choke on misleading
thoughts and dreams
   which I throw into
           this River
looking for answers-
       as I
stood still
              a flower
began to grow
        out my nose
        out my ears
this flower 
        began to
       G R O W


 


 

 
Floating,
Holding on to
Nothing while
Nothing holds on
To me. Grasping
For the last breath
of fresh air.


 


poem
Found myself
bones and all
Tripping over raindrops
Making the time stop
               Grasping hold
To thoughts and
             things that
Read me: whole
  Reflections looking
Me in the eye
To let go of
Secrets held
between knives
                and years
Of self-doubt

 

 

Saturday

 poem


wrapped around her heart

    vines of red thorn 

         eat away at

          her memories

 

the evening swallows 

           her fears 

takes the darkness away

as the moon rises 

her soul touches

secrets the stars hide

  when the winter

snow falls she 

     knows the Angels 

will come home


with velvet 

     grey clouds 

the flowers grow through

    seven years

    with his quaint 

touch only the 

crescent

     m o o n 

could feel


 

 

patrons of the 

Wolf Moon 

cry-

   after the 

black sheep are

laid to rest,

of course.


with nothing 

to be said.

  Peculiar thoughts

spread 

    thin,

across 

hot months

suns of 

August take the 


whisper to the

wind.

 


knocking 

these thoughts

down my 

   r

     a

         in 

s p l a t t e r   on 

the kitchen floor

i begin to shake

 J U N E.

maleficent 
love
beautiful 
    before
her-
she stands 
on the horizon
all i see
is her lonely
shadow.

 


tempted 

     by the sea

     to gently throw

my whole soul

to the wind

   just to

see what bee finds

  me.

next to love, 

    d r o w n i n g

     in her lies,

     my eyes swell 

full of tears.

metal feelings

you may have seen my body,
you may have held my heart,
but now- 
      just leave me in the dark. 
  

Tuesday

 


 

her with the milkweed hair

   standing silent in the forest

    i gave my heart to years ago

    shed  my skin to rip it out

bare hands and all 

 poem

   angel of the 

   crescent moon sky

        she makes my 

             heart 

       sing 

 


poem

if we can't find gold 

in the days to come,

why yell at the 

sun?

 

picking between my 

c

    r    oo   

           ked   t e e t h

the hurtful words 

whom

hide from daylight

can' keep livin' 

                    this life

in such disarray 

Monday

 

eating away at my brains

the hateful stress continuously 

        seeps in 

d e e p e r   and     f a r t h e r

        as bleached as the sun

       drained 

from the  red             heat

these worn eyes have been 

through

       oceans and grey storms

      silence fills the room

      as my teeth begin 

      to grind

silver dawn

him with the unbeautiful

mind 

will see through 

the sheer lies

above the mountains

forms a silver dawn

the home to precious angels

whom don't know a 

goddamn thing and butterflies

     sing low music

come to me 

a red rose blooms in my 

palm as the slivered moon 

rises

 


it's a nice 

    day for a funeral

i must say.

   as crows make way

against a bleak sky.

nothing left inside, felt

just the sensation 

              to die.

 

it's raining blood,

painted skies- 

       red.

a moon full 

       of crimes

only the 

stars know of.

 

knowing i 

did my best

to give 

you my heart

just to watch you 

run in the dark

(blindly)

 poem

lay this body

W H O L E 

into the

winter ground.

dig deep 

to finally 

let this soul 

find peace 

my yellow 

butterfly. 

 


poem.

the way he 

plays his music,

it touches my 

delicate soul.

sets free of all 

feelings-

brings tears to my eyes

because i finally

realized, this 

is 

my

        home.

 


i open my mouth 

    and out comes

a butterfly 

      here to speak 

the words of 

              the 

                 Holy.

 


a fossil heart 

           i hold, 

 in my bare palm.

for you, 

      inside,

hides opal feelings 

of  true l o v e.

 



as milky men

    lick the stars

my light 

     is out for the 

night 

and now i cannot

read.

 


pocket poem 707

an immortal 

white gold sky

sits confined under my

                  tongue. 

 


an onyx moon will set 

tonight

i can feel it in my teeth

   d e e p   

          down

rattles my bones

awakens the soul



POEM

woke up with
  o p a q u e 

t houghts 
           drowning
my ability to

t h i n k 
  
    s
     t
       r
        a
        i 
          g
           ht 

Friday


Can’t say I miss the
Way you licked my
    Scars
Can’t say I miss
The way you
Pulled my hair
With the beast
Inside
Ready to yell
I don’t think you
Truly got a taste
Can’t say I miss
Your love
For I was dead
For centuries
When you were
Around and I
Did nothing
To you man
But give my love
Can’t say I
miss you
anymore




 An unparalleled confession
  Down on my knees
  Begging and yelling
PLEASE
PLEASE
please
Settle down to taste the sun
As I melt into the background
Nothing to hold me anymore
Nothing to take hold of
   An unparalleled feeling
I laugh as they lay my body
To rest and he is there
Standing over me


As beautiful as the city sidewalk
                              Covered in rain
Love hides around every corner




I have never felt 
so empty in my
goddamn life
I have swallowed 
the seas I have licked
The full moon
Take these hands
and let me feel what’s
Real, I can’t 
take it anymore
living in the shadows 
for 
most of this life
i am ready for 
something
new 

Fast As You Can - Fiona Apple - 10/28/2017




Find us at the bottom
Where we find comfort
In the dark corners
  Crawl up the walls
To come back down
   a place we call home



no competition 
love is love 
and nothing 
compares to his
or hers
i can't quite
place a finger
on it 
   all i know is
love is love
and the way
he loved me 
can't compare 
to the love we 
share
we hold in the
dawn's rain

this love isn't
like anything 
i've ever felt
   touched 
kissed .....

love is love
but don't make
me compare 



it doesn't matter if the sun is round
it can't matter when the cows are
milked, the farm is under
construction- DON'T COME IN




poem

In a weird way
I fall in love
With every
   Man
With every
   W o m a n
I lay eyes on
Licking my lips
Thinking about
Their taste
This light
Won’t go out
As long as
I have 
these  eyes




Knocking down the
Pile of skulls
   Rattle the dead bones
The bones, the color
Of bones,
The color of her eyes
Nothing feels closer
       Than the
Ghost in this
    Room when
I stand in between



Peeling this skin
   Back
Layer by layer
Bones and all
EXPOSED
Touching what
Feels real
When everything
That exists 
      is fake

one lonely flower

shining, standing tall
but no one to share this
beauty with

every morning, the sunrise
every night, the sunset

no one to watch with
no one to love with

one lonely flower
shining, standing tall

but no one to share this
beautiful life with 

I want to scream
I want to scream
I want to scream
..... 
Ripping down our walls
Taking the dog out
While you turn sour and sore
Killing me with your
Mean words and the sins
Afraid of not being your
Friend, when you wanted
To throw this heart to
The moon, I still held on
Silly me, silly me, silly me
Grab the knife and just kill
Me
Why don’t you





burn

Open up her soul
Start the fire
     When she howls
     When she HOWLS
Watch it burn
Her body, exposed
Love lived here
  Years ago
Now a fire burning
Destroying her walls
As he stands and watches 
It burns, it burns, it burns
Nothing left to show



as my osseous
heart
     slowly sinks
to oblivion
seventy nuns
take my dreams
  and hoard them
letting them rot
       and smell
as June Bugs
create a Hell
an inlet
for all North American
Bugs
 a Pail full of tears, i've been
carrying around
for fucking years-
it's time to
let the summer soak
and the mosquitoes
    moan
as i gaze three
alligators
make way



i wish i was dead
i'd have more friends.




      Graceful with her words
 But nothing to follow
As I fall down, I need her to
Lift me but nothing around
    Just silence and holes
    In my soul
    


killing time 

Ominous streets
    Change your name
 For a nickel
 nothing wrong
       With that, such a beautiful
       Waste. Dark and grim
       With thorns sticking out
      don't mess with the 
elegant stress of life and death

(poem)


Feeling (almost) naked
With thoughts and
      Bones (bare)
Glued to the wall
   The same wall
Where (sheepskin) hangs
Hang my head on the
Shelf (with) books
                       And things

               


CLOVES - Better Now - 7/26/2018 - Paste Studios - New York, NY

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Even with my empty mind
 He knows what’s right,
His brown eyes
    Making love to  my
Thoughts, playing music
      For my bleak mind 
He knows how to keep
This dead soul alive
And I love him all the
Way through my toes


fireless fire

Neutral eyes
    Our minds
Intertwined
Orange red
    Exposed in the
Summer’s Wind
    A desolate place
To make love
 Lunar stars in a treeless
World
Hold my heart because
It feels empty
  Lately



Wipe the blush off your cheeks
  Your lips, a porcelain grey
   Hiding your tongue behind
Dancing teeth will only get you
Numb man





Her coral colored eyes
  Speaking the truth
Which makes January cold
   The color of snow,
Obsolete roads leading
The endless
         Scarlet heat



pain relief


I can’t help
But shake when I hear
His voice
     Something holding me
High, like hooks in my back
A shelf for all the books
When he breathes my
          Heart stops
And the blood rushes out
          My teeth


warm water 

Silence kills the ones
                 Who think
Deep - 
     D e e p e r        than
A hole in the cemetery
     Floor
     She takes her
        Secrets and 
buries them 
before the show every
W  E D N E S D A Y 
     


poem

The way she moves
   Like a sea with no salt
A flower with no petals


sharp knives

Running off a mountain
     Just to feel the wind
          In between these
                 Arms
A place where you
Used to hide
Now an empty ocean
No one knows where to
Lie anymore
       I used to take the words
       I used to take the pain
But finally my eyes
Shattered
And I couldn’t find
              My breath
With a needle to my
              Head
A gun to the ground
    Hold my heart up
             And set fire
        To the holes in
My head



SaberTooth 

All my teeth
    Are falling out my head
    Words don’t mean a thing
When the lights can’t dance
Or the music doesn’t play
It’s not polite you make my
Teeth itch after midnight 
When the moon reflects the 
future and the sky eats 
    my eyes.

Wednesday


Japanese Jazz 

don't waste your 
time with a dead bee
all it will bring you 
is misery
and lost love

the same place
i found my heart
seven years ago
today

with blood pouring out
   fear only the 
time taken from 
you 

midnight sky

and ruby eyes
shimmer in 
the light
of a crescent moon

as i take my last
breath